Are you excited?

I am getting married in 7 days and some change. What question does everyone ask when you are getting married? One of two: Are you excited or do you have cold feet/doubts? That is a tough question because there are two different feelings: excited and interested. Excited is the normal one but interested is not. I am interested because I find it seemingly impossible how two different lives plus individual sin, with strong personalities, are going to come together and find indescribable joy in great happiness and sorrow. In my immediate world this makes no sense. Why am I doing it then? Well, I truly feel Jesus has called us together and given us a chance to experience the gospel and glorify him… I also love her immensely and she is hot too. Only in the framework of the gospel can two sinners experience joy. I do believe that non-Christians can have good marriages but nothing close to the fulfillment and meaning that comes in the understanding of what it was created to be, a mirror of the relationship of Christ in his church.

Anyway, I am seeing my craziness already and it has not even started yet:

1- I like to watch tv shows, movies or sermons while I go to sleep. Apparently that does not fly.

2- Sports memorabilia is ugly I have now been told- How can my entire life be erased just like this- we are compromising on this one… a very small amount.

3- We both think we are right… always. This doesn’t seem to go well at all but it is funny (not at the time) when one person or the other does something differently after being to that this (whatever it is) is the best way to do something just to “show them” that ‘you are not the boss of me.’ Again, this does not go well and is not good, we seem to apologize and repent a lot.

4- I think the way she puts stuff in the house, spatially, is ugly (I have this weird thing about where things are placed and how, most of the time it is for both functional and aesthetic purposes.). She thinks the way I do it is ugly (she looks at it aesthetically, rarely functionally it seems to me).

Another reason why I am interested: There has always been a cognitive knowledge of the reality of it (marriage) but now it is real. I find more and more I really never know anything until I touch it, feel it, experience it. What does this have to do with marriage? Well it is forever, or until death does part us, but those were just words. Now, however, they take upon new meaning… it is forrrrrrevvvvvverrrrrr (sandlot style). Not that this is bad or scary but more like whoa. Next, I will be faced with one of my greatest weaknesses- emotional gentleness. Though Jesus has made great strides in me in this department, I can now wound and hurt and create roots of bitterness more deeply than ever before. Lastly, the combination of forgiveness and trust needs to be instantaneous. All of these things are where the gospel is seen so much because of marriage. When I am sinned against, I must forgive as Jesus forgave and forgives. Previously, if I was sinned against or hurt there would be a period of time before forgiveness or a trust building time, normally a long time (I do not trust well). There is now no longer this earning back trust period. This is not how Christ loves his church, me. He forgives me and I am perfect before a holy God because of what he did, there is no I am going to hold this against you time. His is loving and forgives, is full of grace and mercy. Oh, this is going to be hard and sanctifying but I long to be that Ephesians 5 husband and I pray that Jesus makes me into that.


Driscoll says my favorite thing when it comes to weddings: This marriage is and will be perfect and wonderful… except for these two people.

Why do the computer keyboard makers make us push shift to get a ? when I will by far use that symbol more than /?

I hope this is understandable. Sorry for the typos.