obedience and learning

there are just somethings that i am just not comfortable with... that means moving and doing things that could hurt me... in the head and heart. For instance, i am willing to move to a city where i know no one, but knowing that it only will take away maybe some physical things and physical things are up in the air. I protect myself from vuneralbility from everyone... very few people actually know me. Going against all things that I hold dear, for the sake of obedience, are things that I long for but am not willing to do them in one part of my life, until today. It was monthssss in coming and as Henry blackaby said in whats so spiritual about your gifts? that there is freedom in uncomfortable obedience and to let God work and not try to control it.... I try to control it, when it deals with me and my internalness... baddd. Anyway, i got what i wasnt expecting but the freedom I was, its funny how that works. anyway, no matter how much i dislike the things of seminary and the info with no application, i learned so much writing my paper and think that understanding the different works of the Trinity deeply, is very beautifully glorious. It creates more comfort and an understanding of the love of God that is beyond comprehension. Here is my favorite Edwards quote:
“The Father is the Deity subsisting in the prime, un-originated and most absolute manner, or the Deity in its direct existence. The Son is the Deity generated by God’s understanding or having an idea of Himself and subsisting in that idea. The Holy Gost is the Deity subsisting in act, or divine essence flowing out breathed forth in God’s Infinite love to and delight in Himself.”

it is God the Father poured forth for redemption and community in the person of the Son. Community and partnership in further redemption of creation with the Holy Spirit. May we partake in worship in the grace of being vessels of redemption of the Almighty God and community with the creator of all things.