obeying directions

The law shows the state of the heart. It is for the revelation of the gap between God and man. Jesus commands us to do things to show us that if I was, as he is, I would not need to be have any law against me. The law and instructions of Christ reveal deficiencies in my ability to fully live the life that God originally intended. He commands us because we do not do, not that we have too, because we are covered by the blood never to be let go, but to show our continued inadequacies and the need of reliance upon the strength of grace. I think that Romans 5-7 are the best example of this as well as anything that Jesus tells us to do because there is no reason to need to hear the great commission if he has affected me to the point of an overflow but the flesh still has some sort of reign… but if I am transformed, I will naturally call out to him and proclaim his name.

I taught youth this weekend it was like worship to me.
I like being busy... it makes me happy.
Life has settled down.
I can't choose.
Living in my house is great.
I havent slept in a long time but it has made me reliant, which i am thankful for.
I cant wait for school to start and learn from a rediculous professor.
I am gifted at many things but am also tempted by many things.

stuff

I dont think that i have ever turned on a radio station that didnt have a dj to match the stereo type of the listeners. I listened to classical radio this morning and everytime i do that, there is a british/ foriegn accent man talking on the other end. We wonder why we have such interesting stereo typing problems... it might start with radio and tv djs and vjs. Anyway, how funny would it be to hear a british dude introducing timbaland or a gangster rapper djs dude introducing bach?

secondly abundant life has been a struggle because im not sure i have true understanding of what it is. I am teaching on why jesus was born which became John 10:10 and was convicted to how hugely my view and our societies view of that life is and how to get it. i cognitively know that it is only in God through Christ but do I believe it? When we stare at who God is the change that takes place because of Jesus we become more like him and our heart no longer follows the law because we do just what jesus did- follow the will of God without realizing it and see the glory of the father everywhere and enjoy who he is and what he does. may we all be changed by the gospel in such a way that we see God.

upside down

how do you live?
that is such a hard question these days with so many opinions. I think that often i get an idea of how it is done and it actually works but something happens to turn it upside down. How is it that we lose either conviction or commitment so fast? Why are we so prone to go back to the same things that take us down rather then when something else has taken us down and go right back to what is truth and works? I think it is all mind frame both God given, 99%, and discpline.
So its been an interesting last four months, to say the least but my whole mind frame is upside down. how sad, but how glorious. Anyway.... live in the truth knowing the hope and the conquering power of Christ is the only way. This is what i am trying to live by and i hope that God heals me from this cloud i seem to be in.

also, work hard. if you think i do, i am really lazy, i promise. ive never had to work to be successful. i just do and its good enough to be better than most, that sounds bad. What good does that do for anyone and oh how disobedient that is to the call of christ let alone a human being. I hope to be all that i can and tell me when im not...which will be often.

if you are a calvinist, you evangelize and still do missions. Those who do not are disobedient to their Lord and call Jesus 'lord.' i think it is funny that only 1900 years after christ did anything but calvinism/ the soveriegnty of God become really really popular.

think, talk, wish God because by him to him and through him are all things.

large day

so yesterday I bought a house and started a new job, slightly a big day. One of those life changing days that rarely occurs.
I have always said that never would anything compare to the nearness of God but until yesterday i never truly believed it. David always calls out for God to come to him so that he can now and see him, that is where I have been lately. Oh the nearness of God is my good and there is nothing more wonderful.
To bring these two ideas together: I got two wonderful gifts yesterday: a good paycheck and a house but in amongst all that God had not been that near to me in a long time and i relished that more than anything.