Is it wierd that I am listening to kelly clarkson...
Secondly, it takes God to kick me in the ass and he is and has. It is wierd that I get mad a God, despite the whole time knowing and believing that He is working for His good as well as mine. I feel as though I truly believe and know that it is all for the good but still continue to get mad and resent God for not doing it my way. Great pride and idolatry. Why does it take so long to figure out? Why is it so hard to have a soft heart? I now realize that it is better to never think that I have made any progress in life but to rest in the fact that I know Christ. I worry so much about the horizontal, get overwhelmed by it and mad at the verticle then do, as I do to people, try to ignore the verticle out of spite... sad.
Finally, God kicked me through the door at DBU. I went in for the second interview and they basically told me what I am doing in my job and what's expected. I truly believe that this is where God has me, against my wishes- leading to stupid resentment. While it answers immediate questions, it opens up a lot more, but I am thankful for what God has given me. This is a moving forward move, not really a desired one but one that is necessary and beneficial, and now I must trust...something really hard for me... all the while knowing the true calling on my life. I pray I do not lose the call but push on knowing that I minister where I am and have a chance to learn and lead kids at youth.
Tomorrow-Jonathan Jordan has inspired me to post my rant...
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2 comments:
Sanctification works better when you submit so keep it up. What will you be doing with DBU?
no it is not weird that you were listening to kelly clarkson...and don't even question that because you know just as well as i do that she is awesome.---and you should marry her....just saying...
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